- OJ Simpson: Not guilty
- Casey Anthony: Not guilty
- 14 year old girl downloading last night's episode of Glee: There's a special place in Hell for people like you
- the world: hey man we've got some really serious problems like global warming and mass economic failure and riots and genocide and aids and cancer and your healthcare system is shit so maybe we should get to work
- US government: sit down I have to stop people from sharing things online
It feels so good to be able to talk to people about everything I swore I would never even be able to talk about. I never understood the meaning or purpose behind support groups, whether it be AA or NA or almost any other type of group where people discuss things. I just never saw a connection to how that can stop a physical craving to any type of substance. I walked into my first meeting today. I introduced myself. I told them why I was there and how I got there and what I wanted to get out of coming. Then, I listened to everybody else. Everyone seemed so much worse off than I am, though I am happy that this fact didn’t satisfy me. My primary counselor told us it isn’t ever a contest. Just because I am better off compared to some people there doesn’t mean I don’t have a problem, a disease called addiction.
We talked about many different things: building relationships, having trust, realizing our own fear and anger. When the meeting was over, my counselor came up to me. He must have noticed how scared and uncomfortable I was. He said: “you did great for your first meeting… I think you are going to be just fine.” The second he said that, something clicked. I walked out of there, drove home in silence and just thought to myself “I really can do this.” I know I can.
Tonight, I start out-patient counseling. Tuesday nights are discussion groups. Nervous!